I lived what seemed to me a double-life for years during my work as a bartender. As soon as I had served my last Happy Hour cosmo, I'd lace up my shoes and go on a run, leaving my beer scented black tshirt behind me.
But, I was happy and living my version of a "healthy life" back then. I may have undone all my miles w/ with too many IPAs, but I was proud of every mile that I ran, and every gym visit I made. I saw exercise as adding value into my life. No one forced me to go; I just felt good after going.
I look back at my days (and nights) behind the bar, and I sometimes I cringe at what I put into my body. I could have been living healthier, for sure. But I know that time in my life was important to the work I do now in helping people. I've been through injury, weight gain, bad nutrition, too much booze, stressful bosses, loss, crappy living situations, goal disappointment, and lack of motivation. Not all of these occurred when I was behind the bar, but it was being a bartender that taught me to listen to people and hear their stories. I've realized that we all struggle with the same issues. Living with manners in which we hold ourselves accountable is not easy at times. Accountability is one of my favorite words--it describes what is needed at times--but feeling drawn to exercise, to move the body, is more ideal. If you feel drawn to something, you'll make time for it.
I realized during my yoga teacher training that what drew me to yoga was the approach of it being a practice, and I feel that your exercise routine/fitness routine, whatever you wanna call it, would benefit from us approaching it the same way. It takes practice to carve time out of the day to anything, whether it's burpees, meditation, or making the bed. It takes practice to get the perfect kettle bell swing or to hold half moon pose steadily. Building a strong practice in life is what makes us consistent and keeps us healthy and sane.
I aim to help you with your niche of fitness the best way that I can, whether you glean a little from reading a blog or want to see what I think of your current fitness/movement/health journey situation. Let me know how I can help, or share your story!